I think everyone could use a little excavating in their souls. To truly find out who we are we must shine a light and be not afraid of what we might find. Welcome to a world where you have acceptance, forgiveness, love, and the permission to be exactly who you are-flaws and all. You will find inspiration, and hope here, and the knowledge that you can have hope, you can have dreams, and they CAN come true, no matter what the world wishes to tell you.
It’s called Wandering Soul and its made by this girl named StarFreak Sarah, and she’s on twitter so I started following her. I’m gonna post a thingy on my blog so you can give it a listen if you want. It’s a pretty cool show and think it could help people. Also, you can email her and ask for advice, or share anything that you find inspiring, and she’ll answer you and share it on the podcast if you allow her to. So go follow @starfreaksarah on twitter. Supposedly she’ll follow everyone back.
I realize I’ve quite neglected my blog and although my inner critic is whispering how guilty I should feel, and that I can’t finish anything I start, I really am not listening and do not feel bad about it because this is my life and I don’t really owe anyone an explanation. Sorry if that sounds rude but its my honest opinion. I have been doing alright….my boys just turned one year old on the 9th….cant believe that!….
even though I’m alright I feel like I’ve been wandering aimlessly a lil bit. I really need to put some order and organization into my days….even though I loathe the idea….I need it. I want to be writing more, even if its drivel, I need to be doing it. I feel the need to reach out to everyone here on the interwebs…. I need to be challenging you and uplifting and showing you (and myself) that we are beautiful and worthy of love and respect. Not from some outside source, but from inside ourselves, from that magical place we all came from, and all will return to one day. To know ourselves fully and without fear or shame, to hold ourselves in high esteem, to see ourselves as we really are and not as the distorted mirror tells us. This is one reason why I am here. So, I need to start doing it. I will start doing it! So, interwebs, expect me to be a bright light in the dark corners….to illuminate and inspire. I am here to serve.
Today in gym, my FtM friend was told—by our GYM TEACHER—that he was not a guy and he had to run pacers with the girls and if he ran pacers with the guys, he would get a zero.
He ran anyway, and got a zero.
If you agree that this was total BULLSHIT, reblog this. I will write down every URL that does and show it to everyone at school, to show how many people thought this was complete bull.
wow that’s really bullshit.
Today God broke me….hasn’t happened in a long time. I had the realization of His sacrifice; it never really has been real to me…except a few times, but never like this. Then I felt Him speaking in my heart and prompting me to write it down. I have and asked what He wants me to do with it. I felt He wanted to me to share this message. So here goes…
My Child, I have always loved you, always been here, always waiting for you to come into my arms.
They are always open. Come to me my Child.
I have loved you since before time and space. I knew you before Creation.
I have counted each hair on your head, held each tear you’ve shed in my hand, have cherished every second of your life, EVEN WHEN YOU’VE RUN FROM ME.
Let me give you peace and rest, let me give you understanding and hope, let me give you that which you’ve been looking for: love and acceptance.
I am. Come back to me my Child. Turn away from the world, my beloved.
I am your portion and my grace is enough. All you have to do is accept it.
Let my love envelope and cover you. You are worthy because I made it so.
Do not make my Sacrifice meaningless; I am here, waiting to give you all that you seek if you just come to me.
My Child, I love you with a never-ending love. Let me Live in your heart and soul. They are mine, just as my love and peace are yours, if you but ask.
I am knocking….will you open the door for me my Child?
So once again it is New year’s eve and I find myself wishing for more of 2012. That has never happened to me before. Years turned over in the past and I didn’t care one way or the other; it was just another year, nothing to be thrilled or regretful about. But this year is, or should I say has been, different for me personally. 2012 started out horrible, but as the months passed, it continually got better. From February till now has been the best year of my life. And I’m sorry it’s coming to an end. So, I felt that 2012 ending called for some sort of remembrance, just because it has been so awesome for me.
February, 2012: two baby boys were born perfectly healthy and so fabulously adorable that I cannot explain in words how much my heart swells with love for them.
April, 2012: my birthday/4th anniversary, got to go out for a dinner and movie and leave the boys with “grandma” Bonnie.
May, 2012: the boy’s first Mothers day as well as mine.
June, 2012: first Fathers day.
Throughout the rest of summer, I felt myself stepping more into the Mommy role and feeling more comfortable with it. Watching the boys grow and change out of newborn and stage 1 diapers, trying baby food and getting better at eating, being silly and learning to play together, and changing into cuter versions of themselves.
August-September, 2012: finally on friendly speaking terms with my parents and starting a more adult relationship.
September-October, 2012: got my best friend back! After a few years of no contact, which as it turns out was her losing a phone and searching for me on the Internet, my Mom gives her my phone number and we talk till this day-it’s like we never lost contact.
November, 2012: The boy’s first Thanksgiving, which was not bad at all because I still made pumpkin pie and mashed ‘tatoes to go with our chickens which hubby decided to shake and bake-it was actually pretty good-and stuffing, along with some other fixings.
December, 2012: this month has brought cookies from Mommy(aka Nana)to us and little cute ones for the boys to drool and nibble on. It’s also brought questions pertaining to God/Yahweh and a renewed hunger not only for truth, but also a relationship with my Saviour.
The boys will be a year old on the 9th of February. They are into stage 3 diapers now which means that they are both above the sixteen pound mark. Jesse has progressed to stage two 1/2 to three baby food and is doing good with the new idea of chewing, and has figured out how to get himself from his tummy to a sitting position. Joshua doesn’t even want to try it, but is still on stage two baby foods. They both have grown so much and changed appearance wise that I can scarcely believe they were ever not this cute, but a look at old pictures prove otherwise. To me they were always this adorable.
I do hope next year will bring blessings and not just financial, but family wise as well as personal and spiritual. And so I say a fond farewell, with a heart full of gratitude, to the year that made my life and look forward to 2013 with hope. I wish for all of you that 2013 will be the year your dreams come true, as this year has been for me.
I’ve been sort of existing these last few days. I mean…I really don’t feel inspired enough to inspire anyone else. I hate living where I live, and I mean i’ve hated it for a while but it’s just getting to me lately. I want to go back to Washington. I miss the energy and everything about Seattle and the nearby areas. if I had my way, he’d sell the freaking pool route already, and everything that’s extra baggage and go. but noooo…..he wants to pay off stuff and build up the pool business, which means getting insurance which is more money, to get some real estates to use him for all their homes, and THEN maybe go, but then we have to think about a job for him out there, and shit like that, AND we have ‘family’ to consider also. Grrrrrrrr!! I’m sorry for venting like this all over your lovely dash but I can’t fucking hold it in anymore. I even snapped at him several times because I just want to be there already! I don’t WANT to wait two years or even one! I don’t think he really gets it. says he does, but I really freaking doubt it. That is all. go on with your fabulous life.
As you may have noticed, I didn’t post a piece yesterday even though I said I would. Technical difficulties with my HP laptop and so I couldn’t upload to it in order to post. Besides I didn’t really find a piece that I was satisfied with. So now I have to get another laptop and use my tablet for stuff. Anyway, back to my point….There were six pieces in all, a few of them being sets, that I posted last week and if any of you happen to like them all I have a deal for you…
I’ll send you all the pieces for 50 dollars. That’s less than 10 dollars each.
So today I bring you a three piece set in orange and green.
Fish hook earrings with jump rings to make them longish and dangly. As you can see the are made with chip beads.
Both the necklace and bracelet are made with one long strand containing both colors and a few jump rings placed in the middle where the color changes to make a double stranded piece.
Both the necklace and bracelet have a lobster clasp…
…and here’s the back so you can see that. All three pieces were made by me as per usual. I’m setting the price at 15 dollars. Till tomorrow…
Today’s piece is actually seven. Bracelets to be exact. Bought them at a bead show a few years back. They’re made with stretchy cord, magnetic beads, and ball caps.
There are two purple (even though in the picture they look blue), two red, two pink and one that is pink and blue.
The purple ones look more purple in this one. LOL
So, I’m gonna say 8 bucks for all seven, or 3 bucks for two. Refer to them as Friday in my ask box. Just so you know, I will be posting two pieces for this weekend and then I will be making you guys an offer for all the pieces shown this week. Stay tuned!
This set I made a few years ago as well. It is made with red glass beads. The necklace uses silver spacers and an ‘S’ hook closure.
As you can see there are 3 varieties of red beads used; the teardrop style beads which have an iridescent backing, the diamond shape ones which also have the backing, and the round tube beads.
The bracelet is memory wire using the same beads. Although this bracelet doesn’t overlap it fits snug on my wrist, which is a medium size, and doesn’t come off.
Here I am wearing it just to give you an idea of how it fits around the neck. my neck isn’t big but it’s not tiny either and the necklace comes down to about the hollow spot below my throat.
The fish hook earrings are dangly and utilize the teardrop style beads. For this set I’m wanting 15 dollars, or if you want one particular piece it’s 8 bucks.